This is the end (2)

[Felix Falora]

I'm sorry... I keep bringing in these rants of mine... this isn't so much of a rant, however, as it is... an emo fest.

I didn't expect myself to be... the inspiration to someone coming out of the closet. Here a straight friend I had, though I prefer not to reveal any names, came onto me. I... I read the description to see why he was acting this way... and it said he decided to reveal he was bi. I was happy he felt he could reveal who he was and... I decided to humor him, but he left in the middle, so... I checked the profile a few minutes later. Turns out he's going to remain forever straight... I was his worst experience ever.

I don't understand... I didn't... I didn't know what he would like... I wasn't being forceful... I was setting it up to his choosing... I don't know anything, so why was I expected to know what to do? This is a stupid rant, but... it hurts... it happened again... right after the wounds of a friend calling me a pedophile were healing... another friend... sees fault... fault that I commited... For my appearence, the way I act... How I am...

Right now, I feel like the lowest human being on the face of the Earth. I know it's selfish, but this... this is not amusing. These insults are not for the lulz... This is the sound of my heart breaking again.

[nintendonut1]

You know what?
Anyone who is willing to throw you away for a few faults just isn't worth being friends with. We're all human. And those who can't understand that... well, it's their loss.
I know of your faults... but you're still my friend.

[Felix Falora]

Important Update: Apparantly it was some other guy that ruined it, not me... I wish he could've specified that, but the replies to my message that stated he hurt me were frantic and appologetic, maybe a little more appolegetic that would be considered satisfactory to be forgiven. Anyway... all seems to be well. I just overreacted... as usual...

DAMN ME AND MY PARANOIA! XD

[nintendonut1]

Ohhhhh...
See what happens when you assume? Makes an "ass" out of "u" and "me".
....oh crap, now that I've actually seen the word, that phrase makes a lot more sense! XD

[Felix Falora]

Look, it was right after the incident where the girl called me a pedophile after seeing my picture and he left while we were in the middle of flirting and BOOM... worst experience ever... I didn't know there was another man.

[nintendonut1]

Okay, yeah, I can understand that... I guess you learned not everybody's always talking about you. I guess that's what you mean by the paranioa thing.

[Felix Falora]

Yeah... I've always been paranoid... and overly-sensative as well. Bad combination >.<

[nintendonut1]

Oooh, yyyyeah... at least you're not in denial about it. That would only make it worse.

[Felix Falora]

Yeah... I know I'm both... I also know I have a short temper.

[nintendonut1]

I already knew that. XD That's why bullies pick on people like us a lot. Because they get a kick out of your crazy reaction. You can't give 'em that satisfaction, man!

[Felix Falora]

Everyone keeps telling me that... But no matter how right they are, I always get worn down in the end.

[nintendonut1]

Oh, trust me, I know it's hard. It's very hard. It's something you just gotta tough out.