Post by B. Marquis on Dec 21, 2011 13:28:59 GMT -5
So these are the final days of visiting my girlfriend in Vegas. It was supposed to be for a month, but it got changed for... reasons.
Apparently, the reason is that her family thought I never changed since the last time I came to visit. I do not know how I was supposed to change.
Afterwards, what made it worse is that my ticket for next month wasn't even on my account, so I was stuck between a rock and a hard place.
We had numerous arguments, and I can hear many contradictions in our conversations, but she never clears them up.
What really gets me is that she tells me that she already told me what was to happen, that her family already thinks this way from the jump, and that coming here was useless, yet she will never recant, or call me a dumbass for going along with it, and I'm not saying that she hasn't said it, I'm just saying that 1) I've decided to not go for reasons like this 2) The last time I was here wasn't so pleasant, and 3) if I knew, 1 would might have happened again.
On top of that, despite the fact that even though I wasn't present on her daughter's birth, yet waiting for the acknowledgement, having hundreds of pics of the little girl, and love her like a daughter, she says she will not acknowledge me as one, which I understand. What I do not understand is she is letting someone else play daddy, the same dude who when told she was pregnant... decided to go to the Marine Corps... and have his recruiter route all of her calls to him.
So yeah... I'm technically taking the last days with a smile, but hell, does it hurt a lot. In the end, I should have known the strong opinions of the family, and that love doesn't conquer all, but damn it if I can say I love a girl who continues to flirt with her ex, allowing him to play daddy.
Personally, I feel that I am a doomed individual from the get go. I'll never find love. I'm sure I'm that dude that will constantly be used penniless, emotionless, and insane. My family has done it and dropped me like a box of rocks. Her family indirectly told me I'm just dead weight. My "girl" is already on the verge of moving on, and that leaves me with constant anger and depression on my belt.
I know some of you will read this and call it a need of attention, of a plea of help. I won't lie, it is.
TL;DR - I got to leave because my girl's family hates me for nothing, my girl acts like she doesn't love me, anyway, I'm hurt, I've been getting hurt and stranded by the ones I love since god-fucking ever, love me, please, love the fuck out of me, for all I wanted for a good year is love, real love.
Apparently, the reason is that her family thought I never changed since the last time I came to visit. I do not know how I was supposed to change.
Afterwards, what made it worse is that my ticket for next month wasn't even on my account, so I was stuck between a rock and a hard place.
We had numerous arguments, and I can hear many contradictions in our conversations, but she never clears them up.
What really gets me is that she tells me that she already told me what was to happen, that her family already thinks this way from the jump, and that coming here was useless, yet she will never recant, or call me a dumbass for going along with it, and I'm not saying that she hasn't said it, I'm just saying that 1) I've decided to not go for reasons like this 2) The last time I was here wasn't so pleasant, and 3) if I knew, 1 would might have happened again.
On top of that, despite the fact that even though I wasn't present on her daughter's birth, yet waiting for the acknowledgement, having hundreds of pics of the little girl, and love her like a daughter, she says she will not acknowledge me as one, which I understand. What I do not understand is she is letting someone else play daddy, the same dude who when told she was pregnant... decided to go to the Marine Corps... and have his recruiter route all of her calls to him.
So yeah... I'm technically taking the last days with a smile, but hell, does it hurt a lot. In the end, I should have known the strong opinions of the family, and that love doesn't conquer all, but damn it if I can say I love a girl who continues to flirt with her ex, allowing him to play daddy.
Personally, I feel that I am a doomed individual from the get go. I'll never find love. I'm sure I'm that dude that will constantly be used penniless, emotionless, and insane. My family has done it and dropped me like a box of rocks. Her family indirectly told me I'm just dead weight. My "girl" is already on the verge of moving on, and that leaves me with constant anger and depression on my belt.
I know some of you will read this and call it a need of attention, of a plea of help. I won't lie, it is.
TL;DR - I got to leave because my girl's family hates me for nothing, my girl acts like she doesn't love me, anyway, I'm hurt, I've been getting hurt and stranded by the ones I love since god-fucking ever, love me, please, love the fuck out of me, for all I wanted for a good year is love, real love.