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Post by ParamountKeymaster on Feb 1, 2020 14:02:27 GMT -5
Evan sighed and rubbed his temple. "I know, I know, I'm sorry... I keep trying to tell myself that it could be worse. That in the grand scheme of things, having phobiosis was probably a bigger problem than this. But... I just... It..." He raised his hands, struggling to come up with the right words, staring down at his fingers. Then he threw his arms down on the bed again in a fit of frustration. "I can't get over how weird this feels! Or how... how it looks on me!"
He covered his face with his hands. "Every time I'm in the bathroom, I spend minutes on end just staring at myself in the mirror! I barely even recognize myself, Swift! All I see is this... th-this giant body and this STUPID, FAT FACE!!!"
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Post by Pink Moon Wolf on Feb 1, 2020 14:25:45 GMT -5
"Evan..."
Swift grabbed Evan's arm, gently pulling it away so he could see her stern but attentive expression. "You listen to me, alright? You're still you. It doesn't matter what you look like. It doesn't matter to us and it shouldn't matter to you. Yes, changes are always gonna be hard to adjust to, and yeah, Arti is Arti with his typical mockery and whatnot... but all the weird looks and the teasing and the jabs don't change the fact that whether you're sick or half spider or four hundred pounds, you are still Evan Anders, everyone still cares about you, and I still love you like no hanyo has ever loved a man."
She slowly let go of his arm, her tone growing somewhat quieter. "Besides... this isn't gonna be forever. We're trying our hardest to find Rainflower and get you back to normal, Ev. And... I'm believing we'll accomplish that soon enough. Not because I wanna get us back to the status quo, but just because I want you to be happy and comfortable again."
Her ears drooped a little as the tiniest of smiles crossed her face. "So no... it's not that bad. Just give it... let's say one more day. One more day of putting up with... this..." she playfully snickered as she lightly jabbed a finger into Evan's stomach. "You can handle that, can't you?"
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Post by ParamountKeymaster on Feb 1, 2020 14:52:59 GMT -5
Evan leaned away slightly and placed a hand over where Swift had poked him, his face involuntarily flushing a deep red. Still, as he lay there in silence, eyes averted and hand rubbing his stomach, he let those words sink in for a moment...
Jen had already given him a similar pep talk, and while she had certainly done her part to keep him motivated, it was different with Swift. He was certain that no one would deny that the "It's not how you look, it's what's inside" argument was cliché as all get out. The fact of the matter was that physical attraction was important in a romantic relationship, and he knew for certain that he and Swift felt it on a mutual level. While he didn't want to admit it, as much as his weight had taken a toll on his self-esteem, at that moment, that was Evan's greatest fear. That he had lost that in her eyes. That she wouldn't be able to look at him the same... or worse, she would simply humor him until he was back to normal.
But... he couldn't deny the sincerity in Swift's voice. The commitment to his wellbeing and his contentment. He couldn't let himself believe that she felt any less of him for his transformation. It clearly wasn't the case, and he was just hurting himself by thinking otherwise.
One particular word that Swift had used earlier lingered in his mind.
"Adorable?" Evan grunted, facing her with a flat expression. "Is that really how you would describe me?"
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Post by Pink Moon Wolf on Feb 1, 2020 15:00:01 GMT -5
"Yesssss~" Swift hummed with a big grin, scooting closer, lying down on her back again, and unabashedly nuzzling up against Evan. "You're my big, adorable dork of a boyfriend. Why? Is there something wrong with being adorable?"
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Post by ParamountKeymaster on Feb 1, 2020 15:11:24 GMT -5
"!!!" Evan's eyes widened the moment Swift leaned against him. Was she snuggling with him? Willingly? He felt like he should've appreciated the gesture –and to some degree, he did– but in the heat of the moment, he found himself more baffled by the sensation than he was consoled. "Uh... No, not objectively, but..."
He remained tense for a moment, then let out a deep breath and allowed himself to relax. "Okay, yeah... Looking past my own opinions of my current image, I can put up with this for another day or so. But... let's talk hypothetically here. Let's say that... potentially... Rainflower has vanished entirely and there's no way to instantaneously change me back to my normal size. ...Would you be okay with that?"
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Post by Pink Moon Wolf on Feb 1, 2020 15:23:33 GMT -5
"Of course I would!" Swift insisted without hesitation, sounding almost affronted by any suggestion to the contrary. "Like I said, nothing else about you has changed. You're still funny, still intuitive, still passionate... you still care about your friends and family, and despite all the pouting and the reluctance to be seen by anyone else, I know you still have that thirst for adventure in you. Once all the necessary adjustments were made, I wouldn't mind having a little bit more of you to love."
She sat up and looked Evan square in the eye. "Plus, and I mean this with utmost sincerity, you're still a pretty darn good-looking guy if I do say so myself. Yeah, maybe a little broader in the face..."
Without warning, Swift closed her eyes, leaned in and pressed her lips against Evan's, remaining there for a good five seconds before releasing the kiss with a gentle smacking sound and a beaming smile. "...but I could get used to it!"
She then settled back into bed, leaning against Evan with her head on his chest and her arms tucked between their bodies. "I think the real question is... could you?"
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Post by ParamountKeymaster on Feb 1, 2020 15:44:45 GMT -5
O - O
To say that Evan was completely blindsided would've been a severe understatement. That was the absolute last thing he had expected. The entire time Swift kissed him, all he could do was tense up and stare at her in wide-eyed disbelief. His expression didn't even change when she pulled away and huddled up against him again, assuring him once and for all that she was comfortable with his present figure. It took him a while, but when he did finally find the will to move, the first thing he did was gingerly touch his lips and mentally question whether or not that had just happened.
He gazed down at Swift, who looked unabashedly cozy as she settled against his form nicely. As he slowly got over the shock, the bewilderment, the confusion as to why she would actually want this... he had to admit... her tender touch, the warmth radiating off of her... it felt good. Familiar.
With his worries significantly lessened, Evan slowly reached up and wrapped an arm around Swift, briefly stroking her ear with his thumb. In response to her question, he mumbled, "I don't know. I guess... after a while, I would at least be accustomed to feeling like this. And eventually everyone would probably be used to the way I look and stop staring at me like it's anything out of the ordinary; that would definitely help. But..." He shrugged his free arm. "...I honestly doubt I would be able to let go of how I used to be."
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Post by Pink Moon Wolf on Feb 1, 2020 15:52:32 GMT -5
"I guess I can understand that..." Swift sighed, inching even closer to Evan and nuzzling him in a practically formfitting manner. "But hey, you don't have to worry about that, 'cause tomorrow, I'm finally gonna end this. You'll be your old self in no time, Evan. I promise."
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Post by ParamountKeymaster on Feb 1, 2020 16:01:08 GMT -5
At that, Evan finally mustered a smile. A small one, but a genuine one. After only briefly considering whether or not this would cross any boundaries, he leaned his cheek on Swift's head, simply grateful to know that she would go to the ends of the island for him but still be content if things didn't work out. It certainly made that possibility seem less scary. But then again, what else was new with her?
"Thanks."
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Post by Pink Moon Wolf on Feb 1, 2020 16:21:56 GMT -5
"Anytime, Evan." Swift took a deep breath, allowing herself a moment to relax, settle into Evan's embrace, soak in just how warm and... oh geez, just how soft he was. Cuddling with him was certainly nothing new, but with the added amount of cushion, this was in a whole other ballpark of sheer comfort.
Eventually she opened her eyes and cast an anxious look at nothing in particular. "So, uh... I've been morb- uh... really curious, and I'm sorry if this is a touchy subject, but... on a purely physical level, what does it feel like? Y'know, to be this... big?"
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Post by ParamountKeymaster on Feb 1, 2020 16:37:41 GMT -5
"Nice save," Evan teasingly deadpanned before pausing to gather his thoughts, hoping to adequately express them without dipping back into self-loathing.
When Evan spoke up again, he did so haltingly but at least coherently. "Well... going all the way back, I remember the transformation pretty vividly. At first it just felt like I had to puke, but after that... it didn't really hurt, at least not until my clothes got too tight. It was just like... a lot of stretching and a... really intense, tingly, bubbling sensation. In a weird way, it almost kinda tickled."
A quick sigh, then he continued, "As for how it feels right now... it's honestly not too, too different from how I normally feel, all things considered. I just feel... heavier... and wider. Like, if I close my eyes, I can still tell it's there, but it's nothing as bizarre as having a whole new set of fully-functioning appendages. It's a little worse when I'm standing. It's not that I necessarily have trouble carrying the weight. It just feels like there's a... slight increase in gravity... if that makes sense."
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Post by Pink Moon Wolf on Feb 1, 2020 16:46:28 GMT -5
"I see..." Swift mused with a suspiciously playful smirk, fidgeting slightly as she repositioned her arm. Would this be a step too far? Probably, but she was feeling too playfully risky to care. "So it's like... you still mostly feel like yourself. You're just constantly aware of the extra padding in the midsection. That doesn't sound so bad. ...And that actually reminds me, do you still have synesthesia?"
Her fingers softly brushed against Evan's belly...
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Post by ParamountKeymaster on Feb 1, 2020 16:51:36 GMT -5
"Nah, that's been gone since before I woke up. Because of course THAT ONE was only temporar-"
The moment he felt that gentle touch along his abdomen, Evan knowingly went tense and wide-eyed. "Swift, don't you dare-HMPH!!!"
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Post by Pink Moon Wolf on Feb 1, 2020 16:56:32 GMT -5
"Sorry~!" Swift giggled as her hand spontaneously clutched Evan's stomach, her palm digging in and moving in rapid, massaging circles. Yep, she was definitely overstepping her boundaries, but dang it if the plush sensation wasn't completely worth it. "Blame it on the curiosity! You know I like soft things and you kinda fit the bill right now!"
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Post by ParamountKeymaster on Feb 1, 2020 17:49:21 GMT -5
"SWIFT...!" Evan squirmed in place, trying to back away but finding little room behind him on the bed to back into. His skin crawled and his insides knotted as he tucked himself into a corner, only able to react to being on the receiving end of a tummy rub with utter humiliation.
"Swift, come o-PFFFFFTHAHAHAHAHA...!" Despite this, the sensation was such an odd combination of awkward, comforting, supple and ticklish that it elicited involuntary laughter out of him, and no matter which way he rolled or shifted to get away, no matter how hard he pushed her back, Swift just moved in sync, always staying right on top of him with her hand consistently fondling his belly. "Okay, okay, STOP! HAHA! SERIOUSLY, CUT IT OUAHAHAHAHA...! SWIFT!!! GYAHAHAHA...! SWIFT, COME ON, STOP IT!!! AAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA...!"
Eventually, Evan finally managed to grab Swift's wrist and forcefully pry her hand off, at which point he looked her square in the eye, snarling with gritted teeth and a dead-straight tone, "Swift, I'm serious, cut it out."
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